When I love, I love hard.

Have you loved someone so much before that it hurts to know that one day, they might just disappear from your life? Have you ever felt so deeply attached to someone that it was evident that the world was a better place (at least in your eyes) because he/she changed the way it was?

Well, that's this man for me.

My boyfriend has been the most tolerant and he did a lot of things for me that I never thought anybody would. He would take the bad and make it better. He always had a way with words and his way of loving is quite divine.

The point of this post is that just like every girl out there, I'm extremely afraid of what the future holds. I've been too attached to him for far too long and if one day, if we have to part, I have no idea how it'll be like. Just the thought of it hurts and for the past few days, things hasn't been a bed of roses. We both felt that we've drifted away from each other and that sucks because I always felt that I've not been doing enough.

I have no idea to rectify this and honestly, I never want to lose him. Never. We've been through a hell load of shit. For all I know, this love is real. It's real and that's why it hurts.

I just wanted to let you know, Adam Smashing, that I'm in love with you so much. So much that it hurts. I'm sorry if I've been such an ignorant girlfriend.

- S xx